My last post was certainly not a lighthearted one! It was definitely written from a place of anger, frustration, disappointment….and extreme honesty. Sorry to be such a downer. Time to change up the mood, eh?
My birthday last week was actually (aside from the shitty stuff) pretty great. The day before my actual b-day I trimmed the tree, and Mark took me out for a very indulgent meal at my favorite Italian place. The day of I had to work for a few hours, but they surprised me with a delicious cake! That was followed by meeting my family for pizza…not exactly a light calorie day (or week, really)!
Mark and I have done a lot of talking (sooooo tired of talking/thinking about my feelings) since last week. I’m not sure what’s in store for us, but I’m still moving forward with buying a car and staying with family for a while, though that probably won’t be until early January. I’ve lived here for almost 5 years and have amassed a lot of stuff during that time. Over the weekend I started packing up some non-essentials. It’s weird.
And finally…with all of this crap going on, I’m trying to remember to indulge and treat myself a little. Mostly, that has meant lapping up wine as much as I like. In lieu of doing the life change/drastic hair change thing and chopping it all off, I’ve been straightening it, wearing it down (GASP), and sweeping my bangs off my face. Small changes that seem like a big change (at least to moi).
Thanks for the insanely supportive and sweet comments on the last post. I honestly don’t think I would be able to get through this confusing time without the support of internet friends. Love you guys ♥